-When I rode the title of this topic, I was like, uh oh some dumbass shot himself in the eye and got hurt.
-When reading about the whole surgery thing I tought, damn this is serious, he had surgery!
-When scrolling down and seeing that picture of you I tought nothing anymore and my heart stopped for a second...  
 
 
DAMN, that's really bad! (And stupid) Unless your nerves were killed, that would have done a badass amount of pain!
I hope you recover quickly, and I also hope you will not quit spudding for ever. Ofcourse you're scared, but if you never look down any barrel again (I bet you won't) why not continue this great hobby?
Could you post or link the gun this happened with? And maybe add a picture of "after surgery" if possible. Is one "eye thingy" (black circle) now always larger then the other?
You just learned most of the guys over here that looking down the barrel is really "not a very wise thing to do" and you may even have saved someones life or eye with this lesson, since this is a lesson for all of us. 

Hey, atleast you made a topic that was stickied, and people from spudfiles will never forget you! You are now the ledgendairy eye-boy  :cyclopsani: